Well here I am in a dull, windy, bleak & rainy UK.
I haven’t set foot in England for two & a half years. It’s funny how even though everything in Bulgaria is so different, & coming back here is stepping forward into the 2st century, even though its a different world, one I have rejected, it’s the roots of who I am.
I am that little “cockney” girl who hates cities & tall buildings, hates the rush & ignorance of London life, even though I was born & bred to it.
I class myself as English born & bred, the type who crosses out British on forms & writes English lol, but I am typically British. Born dahn sath in Laahndan tahn to a Welsh mum, (who was born of an Irish father & Welsh Mother) & a northern Dad, (who’s parentage, I know nothing). So I am British, but ask me the question & I will say I am English.
But where is “Home”
I have abandoned my country of birth & my Englishness, to live in a new, up & coming country, full of possibilities, hope & peacefulness. Now I find myself back in my homeland, two & a half years since my last visit, to find a different life than I remember. Technology has moved on so much with phones that I have no idea what is going on! I used to have the latest phones & the most free mins texts etc, oh yes I was there, up with the best, but now I have a 9yr old phone & so far behind the times I’m not sure I like it! My son gave me his old phone a Galaxy something & I just can’t get it to work, argh, so its off to find another sim & see where we go from there. Please God I get it working then I will be well chuffed as they cost a stupid amount of money in Bulgaria!
TV’s are another thing. Huge TV’s in almost every home in the UK, Bulgaria, well again it’s the ex pat comunity that has them & a few well heeled Bulgarians, but the size & price here has shocked me. When we left we had a 32″ that cost £400 now, well, I could buy that for just over £100!!!!!! Mum has just bought a plasma 51″ TV plus a wall bracket for just over £500. I am amazed. In Bulgaria they are pure luxury but it seems here in the UK they are part of life’s necessities. & have to be bigger, bigger, bigger, oh if only Then there is the Internet, wow, wow, wow! I love it, click & whoosh I’m there, I forgot how quick it is, sooooooo slow in Bulgaria, everything is a struggle & takes time. In my village we don’t have broadband or cable which some do, we have a dongle with a rubbish net-book so writing a blog is an all day effort & surfing is, well, sloooooow! Here in the UK I am using families laptops which are high spec & fast connection so its a wonderful pleasure to find a few mins to write
Would I swap this for my life????????………… Not on your nelly! I would rather live with the small annoyances I have & have the life I have than live a life of must have’s, must have bigger, better, more, money, house, PC, iPhone, iPod, car, pool, clothes, jewellery & on & on & on…….. Nope life for me is one of simplicity, hard work, but for no governor we have ourselves to answer to, we set our goals that we work towards, timetables & thank goodness we both have those skills from our previous lives We use them now. My organisational skills are about to come into there own this year co-ordinating, time management & organising people are the skills I will be concentrating on but also the skill of developing a tan while floating in the pool LOL! I admit to missing the technology when I am here & I wistfully covet the iphone & high spec laptop oh & to have a 51″ TV well that would be decadent ;-D
What is the best thing about visiting the UK, well family off course, my lovely mum & granddaughters who are growing so, my children who are full grown adult’s, yes I know they have been for years but my son is 30 in June & that is old lol, My lovely sister in law who has been in my life from the age of 13 & is more my sister than in law, & my niece & nephew. The family is growing , every time I visit there is another addition, be it partner or baby, wonderful. This trip is to help care for mum who has just had a knee replacement operation at the age of 88 & as my brother is coming over from Australia later I also get to spend time with my children & grandchildren, while catching up with old friends before coming back for the second half of my trip. The other best thing is looking round the shops, seeing all the things I can’t buy in Bulgaria. The fresh cream cakes (my big downfall), sauces (HP now do a Guinness sauce!), cheap clothes, & all the wonderful cooking & baking implements. I love rooting through the herbs & spices & finding all the baking bits. It seems my favourite past time of baking has taken off big time here, I so wish we could get all these ingredients! I bought some clotted cream as I feel deprived hahaha, no diet yet then!
My daughter’s & niece have lovely clothes accessories, hair etc they are very girlie & I realised how far away from the person I was to the person I am now. This is a sad situation for me, but we have gone from having the money for me, to spend on me, to not. My hair alone used to cost me £130 every 6 weeks but in Bulgaria I have had it cut twice in three & a half years with one highlight & three packet dye jobs lol!!!! Yes I miss it, but no I won’t give up my lovely life. Life in Bulgaria has been a struggle for us, we had no house to sell to set us up so work is needed. This is a struggle in Bulgaria with the world struggling house prices falling & people watching their pennies. But then we appreciate more what we have had to struggle for! We both feel it is wrong to push & force ourselves on people, so work comes through word of mouth. We make friends with people for friendship sake & would never dream of doing it just to get work, this is not part of our morality. We love our friends & I love nothing more than socialising, caring about people, emotionally & through hospitality, I love cooking for friends & I just cannot pretend. I have to say It’s wonderful to be amongst people who have known me for donkeys years & know who I am inside, )) & that I have good friends in Bulgaria who I miss & who miss me
So the blogs over the next few weeks will be coming from the UK, viewed from an expat heart, mind & eye